...it's easy to think that it might be you.
--amber rubarth www.myspace.com/amberrubarth
Thursday, September 25, 2008
hi!
Hi! Forever ago was the last I posted....and I am back. I am back. I am back. And I am not going to try and fill in the blanks here, let's start from scratch.
First off. Dean. Out of the picture. After all the religious back and forth, a nasty break up and the discovery that the last two months of our relationship had been spent in another woman's bed, I gave up. We parted ways on Rebel Spirit (which for the record, has become a GREAT success, sponsorship, national exposure, etc.) and have somehow managed good terms after months of spiteful hatred.
So.
I am single. Single and STILL Jewish ;) Still in love with music. Still. Me.
I read back over a few entries, about dean and I. How harsh, how strong I was with him. Not sure it was all a great thing to be that way. Not sure why I felt so comfortable trying to change someone. He did want it, too. Don't get me wrong. But I do see how it sent him running. To another. Girl. Younger. And on Gossip Girl.
GO FIGURE.
And no, I am not bitter. Because he writes me letters every day asking for me back. And while deep down I wish i could, yet again, jump in, I know its sealed and wrong.
And PLUS.
I've moved on ;)
xRed Out Loud
First off. Dean. Out of the picture. After all the religious back and forth, a nasty break up and the discovery that the last two months of our relationship had been spent in another woman's bed, I gave up. We parted ways on Rebel Spirit (which for the record, has become a GREAT success, sponsorship, national exposure, etc.) and have somehow managed good terms after months of spiteful hatred.
So.
I am single. Single and STILL Jewish ;) Still in love with music. Still. Me.
I read back over a few entries, about dean and I. How harsh, how strong I was with him. Not sure it was all a great thing to be that way. Not sure why I felt so comfortable trying to change someone. He did want it, too. Don't get me wrong. But I do see how it sent him running. To another. Girl. Younger. And on Gossip Girl.
GO FIGURE.
And no, I am not bitter. Because he writes me letters every day asking for me back. And while deep down I wish i could, yet again, jump in, I know its sealed and wrong.
And PLUS.
I've moved on ;)
xRed Out Loud
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